A Twist of Fate

Today was quite the busy day. Katya and I went shopping, where I found the most adorable pair of pink Harajuku high tops for $20 on super clearance and the prettiest purple dress for my graduation party. Oooh, and rocky road frozen yogurt :) Very productive trip. The movie tonight was good too. The funniest thing, however, was the bunch of older ladies who went to see it (and for any of you who have seen the Hangover, you all know it is NOT a movie geared toward 50+). They laughed loudly the entire time like the sounds you hear when you enter the bird exhibit at the zoo - all sorts of high pitched chirps and whistles. I cracked up the entire time listening to them and it made the whole experience that much more humorous.

We had sun all day. That made me smile. And the moon tonight was so tiny, it was like a little fingernail clipping. It felt so good to be outside at nine thirty and it be light out. That's what summer is about, that sense of everything being slowed down and relaxed. Another good thing - my pool is finally opened. I have work tomorrow from nine until one and as soon as I get home, I'm dive-bombing right in, regardless of temperature. Last summer, my sister and I spent so many late nights in the pool, floating around with the radio on. That was actually one of the only positive things about summer '08. I can't wait to start doing that again.

For now, though, I'm heading off to bed for my now familiar ritual - snuggle under the covers, put on some background noise, and try to hide how much I like this boy while he texts me until I fall asleep. Last night, actually, he got me really upset. Because he claims he wants to be with me but I told him needs to get everything sorted out first. BECAUSE HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND! I feel like he's dragging me into the middle of this situation he doesn't even know how to control, and it's not fair to me or his girlfriend, even if the relationship is eeeehhhh. Plus, when I get into something, I give it all I've got. It's all or nothing for me. That's just the kind of person I am. And my emotions are already wayyy too tangled up in this for my liking. I just won't be happy AT ALL if this ends up the same way as the others, with me alone. So I'm just trying to give it time and not get worked up about it. But I can't help it. =/

OKAAAYY. Yeah, word vomited a tiny bit there. I'm going now. For real. Sleep tight.